Stephanie Leigh

Peace Out!

2003-09-10T12:26:17Z

Hey y'all, just writing to say this is my last entry in here for a long time. I just don't feel secure about writing about my personal life over something that isn't trustworthy. Things at home suck and I hate it, I want to move out. My mother is absolutly out of her mind, and she is being ridiculous about it. Its unfair and a shame, that we can never get along. She feels the need to constatnly be nosing into my life, being a backstabber, and treating me as though I am 14 years old. And I'm not, I am 18 years old and I have started making descions for myself. She is set on the fact that I have a "boyfriend", which I don't at all. I think we've all read my entries about the infamous "him" that I have said I like so much, but its nothing serious, or I would have put a name. I just hope that she feels good about herself when she realizes that she is acting very foolish and childish. I'm not going to let ether of them take away the happiness that I have searched so long for and finally found. I am so stressed out about it all, and no one cares..... I guess I'm on my own with this one, as usual. But I'll make it through this, and it will come out good for me, it never has, but it will this time. I am too satisfied with my life right now to see it dissolve over someone being high off self fufillment. Sucks that I can't express my feelings to anyone, and now, I can't even write them down anymore. It's been nice sharing my experiences with you all. Peace out y'all.

Home!

2003-08-18T00:56:41Z

My weekend in vermont was fun, although pretty stressful. My horse was absolutly terrible loading into the trailer, it was dramatic!! But other then that it was good, we did better then I thought! I was proud of Hawk, he really tryed hard to do the best he could, with so little practice involved. My sister drove me nuts this weekend though! She is just so selfish and spoiled it makes me sick. I have fun with her sometimes, but I really can't wait for her to back to school. Tomorow I hope goes well, with my plans with Kev and with him.... I'm keeping my fingers crossed that drama has disolved since I have been gone. I'm off to shower.

Home sweet Home

2003-07-27T20:53:06Z

The cape was a blast, defaintly a good time, but even better to be home. I missed things too much, but at the same time, I needed to get away. Its nice though because I don't have to go back to work until thursday! Whoo! A lot of things have been going through my mind that I don't feel I should discuss until I know for sure. I have missed my friends terribly, I want to take a week and just hang out with them 24/7. Everything has been the same, nothing new, nothing old.... just same ol shit on a diffrent day. I'll update when there is something to talk about... wow my life is dull:(

One more day...

2003-07-17T17:10:00Z

Just one more day until I leave for the cape for a week, thank god, I need to get away from this place. Not too much has been going on, but what has gone on hasn't been the greatest. I got some bad news from my doctor the other day that sent me to the hospital for major injections, and that made me nervous about what else could be going on inside my body. I need to get my blood tested asap, but not till I get home from vacation. Thats the last thing that I need when I am supposed to be having fun, is worring about that. Work has been shitty, not making too much money, the only thing that motivates me to go back everyday is my girls that suffer through it with me. I am really going to miss them this week, and James too. We've been hanging out more then usual, and its a good time. He was there for me when I really needed someone, and that was really genuine of him. I hope that he stays out of trouble when I'm not around, everytime I go away he gets into shit that I have to bail him out of, and I'm not feeling that. Ok, gotta go shower and get ready for work:( Bye y'all.

Its the party life for me

2003-07-09T16:17:27Z

Summer has really been looking up laltely and I have been doing a nice amount of partying. I'm not sure when the last I updated. The 4th was good, Jackie and I went to Mike's where there were a million people, and that was ok. I have been staying at Jackie's for like the last week, barely being home at all. We hit up Blaney's house the other night, had a fabulous time with gorgeous Dan.;) This boy is the prime example of perfection, I can't even get over how beautiful he is... I hope I see him again soon:) Ummm.... work has been slow, kinda boring, but fun at the same time because I have my girls there. Merry, Jackie and me have been like the three musketeers for the last few weeks, and its such a good time.

James and I are good being friends, we hang out once and a while and its better this way. I need freedom and thats what I am getting and I am happy with that. I hope that he is happy too. Oh yeah! Marley had her babies on the 4th! They are so cute and small:) I wish that I could get over there more often, but I really don't like dealing with his narotic family..... not even getting into that. My nipples are fully healed now and back in the game, I love them;) I dunno, I guess nothing exciting has really been going on. Just work and play! As of now, I am off to shower, because I haven't been here in my house in forever and I need to cleanse myself from the stentch of booze and smoke, yea gross. Bye y'all, hope all is well:)

I thought it would be more?

2003-06-30T15:52:31Z

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Anyways, I worked 12 hours yesterday, but it really wasn't too bad because I worked with all my girlfriends and Jason;) Ummm... afterwards we all went to the fireworks, bought some pot, and just drove around and had a good time. I am happy that I don't have to work today though, I need a day off, although I will prolly go down there today because Jason is working and I want to see him. My burn is finally peeling and I am so itchy..... what else is new? My nipples are healing beautifully, can't wait to put those into effect:) I really haven't been up to much of anything, I don't really know why I bother updating this thing! Ok, I have lots to do today on my day off and I gotta get them done or I never will! Bye y'all!

A night on the town?

2003-06-28T05:12:00Z

More like a walk all over the fucking city! Jon and I walked all over gloucester it seems today because the fiesta traffic was so bad that we couldn't drive anywhere. We went down to fiesta for a bit and chilled out, nothing exciting, so we went to a party at his buddy's house and I had a super time there. No, it really was fun(i thought the last statement seemed sarcastic).Tonight was the first night that I have drank where I didn't get sick, and that made me cheeful:) Its just nice to know that I may once again become who I once was... a party girl, I just need to get that confidence back. I was supposed to hang out with Jason tonight, but instead he hung out with his buddies. Is it a shaft when guys do that? "A bunch of my buddies are coming over, but I defaintly wanna see you if you wanna hang out with us". Whats that? I have no clue, I guess I will find out Sunday when I work with him, or better yet, I hope we can hang out before then. We shall see I suppose.

Anyways I have been getting a clearer picture in my head of what I want with things in my life. I am starting to get self motivated to recreate my body into an image that I can be proud of again. Because what I got now just aint working for me anymore. Its just not worth it to me to chance beauty over weakness anymore. I hope that I can actaully stay motivated this time and see that this is what I really want. I want to feel appreciated, I want people to have to work for my attention and time, and that just isn't happening lately ether. Expect for James, no one in particular calls me every day to see if I want to chill. James has got to be one of my best friends right now, and thats the way that I like it, its better this way and I hope that it only gets better in the future. I dunno... I shouldn't be getting myself into this dramatic, stressful issues when I just had a great time with Jon. I should be enjoying the moment..... with that in mind, I gotta go get some sleep for work tomorow:( Night y'all.

On fire!

2003-06-25T04:40:54Z

OOOOOO!! I am so sunburnt from the beach today, I can't tell whether I am hot or cold... its all good, I had a great time. I went with Lauren and then I had to go to work. It wasn't that bad, really slow, but I worked with hot people so it made it ok. Tonight I went out with Han and Magee and their friends from Lynn. Such a good time, tomorow is going to be wonderful, and I can't wait. Its about time summer started! Not much to say.... besides a mosquito is attacking me. Night!

Fastinating....

2003-06-19T04:48:16Z

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Ouchy!

2003-06-18T04:09:34Z

Ouch! I got my nipples pierced today. It really wasn't that bad at all and I am happy with it. Had an overall good day... went to Salem with Jill, got my nipples pierced, went to work(that totally put a damper on my night)chilled with with Kevin.... overall a good day. Just thought I'd update this dusty ol' thing. Good night y'all:)

A day to myself....

2003-06-16T03:15:54Z

I finally have a day off from work tomorow and I am pretty excited about it. I have been working pretty much full time these days, the money is great, but I would love more days off to hang out on the beach or whatever. Tonight I chilled with Derek and that was a good time;) Now I am just here, being happy that I don't have to wake up early tomorow.... things in my life right now are cloudy... I don't really know how I feel, or what I want. But its out there, I just know it, its just the fact of knowing when I am going to find it. Sometimes I want to give in and cry from all the confusment in my head, but I know that won't help me out any. I just gotta keep living life and let what I am looking for naturally fall right in front of my face when I least expect it. Thats how it always works, right? I dunno.. good night y'all.

AHHHHH!!!!!

2003-06-07T15:46:06Z

Can I even put my excitment and happiness into words at this moment?? NOO! Yesterday was my 18th birthday, it was very nice! Han took me out to breakfast and then Han, Jilly,Sammy, Sara,Candance, Bri,Justin,Zan and Al went to the beach on the beautiful day that it was yesterday! I loved the beach, I wanted to stay all day long, but I had to get home to get ready for my **GRADUATION!!!!!!!*** WHOO!! Thats right y'all, I graduated high school last night, its all over and I made it. I can't even beleive it, it hasn't hit me whats so ever. I was so emtional during the cermony, I cryed my eyes out the whole time. But what a wonderful night, it was the best night of my life, I felt so superior. Afterwards Sharai and I went to Tommy's house, chilled out there with the Olson brothers(yum!) and then proceeded to Brian's where the whole class was gathered. It was so much fun, everyone was so drunk and silly and it was excellent!! We stayed till about 3am and then headed to Sammy's house where like 10 odd people crashed. It was defaintly a crazy night for everyone:) This morning we all went to breakfast at Micheal's and Katie was our waitress! Yay Katie!!:) It was super yummy:) Today there are a million and one parties to go to, but I am so tired, I just wanna chill out and get myself together. I have been so busy and on the go for the last week, and tonight there is a huge bash at Al's house, so I should prolly rest up for that! It's crappy out today and thats too bad because it was so nice out yesterday... for my birthday! AHH! Hehe, so giddy and happy with life! I got a ridiculous amount of money from my rents, holy shit, I am rich all on my own!:) Ummmm.... I don't really think that there is too much more to update at this point, just that I turned 18, I graduated from RHS, going to a ton of parties this week, and I am happy as a pie:) Bye y'all.

Most intence day of my natural born life!

2003-06-03T20:35:44Z

Wow, today was just absolutly intence. I took my math final over, needed a 32% to graduate.... ohhhh boyyy... so I took it, waited for 2 hours until my results were in... and YAY for me!! I passed with a 68%!!!! Alex and I hung out all day long, and that was just wonderful:) He came over and we ripped the bong and tryed to chill out before we found out... and yes, Alex was the biggest emtional mess that I have ever seen him in my 6 years of being best friends with him. We both passed, we both cryed, it was just a really special moment. It was what all our hard work came down to. We didn't sail smoothly into graduation, we fought hard to get there, it was a constant struggle, but we did it, and it was very emtional. It was the most intence day... so nerve wracking, and I am so glad that its over with. PHEW! I will be graduting June 6th 2003 at 7:00pm at RHS.... my birthday as well! How perfect is that?? Ohhh boyyy.... well, I have senior awards tonight and afterwards I am hitting up the party scene with Hannah Banana. Can't wait for that, finally something to celebrate!! My summer has finally started! WHOOOO HOOOO!!!:) Be happy for me y'all! I'm outta ehre to shower and get ready for tonight!

Finally a nice day

2003-06-02T14:48:28Z

Today is so nice out, its too bad that I can't go out and play with my friends. My mum is making me stay in and study until I take my test tomorow. Totally a bummer! She has been so annoying lately,. I just can't handle it. I don't need extra stress! Anyways, James and I decided to be friends. It is mutual, things just aren't working out right now, and thats a really hard situation. I mean, I have been with him since I was 16 years old, and in 5 days I will be 18 years old. I am really going to miss seeing him all the time, but I have to do this for myself, and I think that its best for the both of us. I dunno... I hope that we can be good friends and not fight anymore, and just have things be good. I gotta go study before my meeting at 12:30. Bye y'all.

Class Trip!!!!

2003-06-01T23:38:44Z

I just got home from my senior class trip in Falmouth. It was such a blast, I am so happy with everything that happened. Although the day we left on Friday, it was an extremly stressful day. I took my algebra final and got a zero on it because I am slightly a retard. So because of that I was failing for the year, hence meaning no graduation for me. I was very upset and freaking out about it, which is compleltly understandable, right? Mr. Whittey gave me a second chance to make it up and I get to do it over on tuesday. I have studyed so much today, and I HAVE to pass!! Its do or die on Tuesday, so keep your fingers crossed for me y'all!

Yeah so anyways... friday was a beautiful day and of course the bus broke down somewhere so we had to wait outside the school for 2 hours. We were a little off course! But it was nice out, so we just lounged out in the sun and got tan. Then off we went on the sweet buses and had a great time. When we got there we swam and went crazy in the freezing cold ocean( even though there were a whole bunch of indoor pools, haha). After dinner we partyed out on the beach all night long. We had a wiffle ball game... penises against vagina's.... go vagina's! Eww, I suppose that sounds gross, but those were out team names. Matty and I snuck out and went down to the beach after hours and got in trouble. He was mad at me and we didn't talk all weekend because of that and I cryed all saturday night because I was so upset on the way he was treating me. It was really immature and unfair! But saturday we went to Martha's Vinyard in the ferry and it was a nice time. I spent most of my time with Jill, Hannah, Magee, Sharai. Our class gets along so great, we just always have a fun time together. And now I am home, and I am glad. The trip really made me see how badly I am going to miss my class next year, and it also makes me regret a lot of things that I missed out on along the way.

This week is going to be so hectic and stressful. Besides the fact that my future basically lies on Tuesday, I have graduation rehersal Mon-Fri, 8am-11am. Tuesday is sports awards night, Wednesday is acedemic awards night, Thursday is the senior banquet, and friday is graduation AND my 18th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whooo! That is another reason why I need to graduate, I mean how terrible of a birthday would I have if I didn't graduate with all my friends?? Speaking of which, I gotta get back to studying! Just wanted to update on my class trip and what a weekend it was! Remember now.... keep your fingers crossed for me, and wish me luck!! :)

Qui? Moi?

2003-05-23T00:03:36Z

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Awww...

2003-05-22T15:45:37Z

I am an overly happy A.D.D kitten

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Hehe, I love kitties so much, esspessially my new babies! OOO! Soo cute:) Anyways, here I am at home because I am very sick:( I wish that I could skip the whole day, but I need to get in for IR and Human body so that I don't lose credits for too many absences!:/ School is almost all over for me and I can't fucking wait!!!!! 2 more days, and I am done with high school, I am so fucking siked, I can't even put it into words. I was soooooo mad that Clay didn't win last night! What is wrong with you people thjat voted for Rueben?! Can you not see how cute and dorky and AMAZING Clay is?! Grrr.. whateve, he'll make it bigger then Rueben anyways. Gotta jet off to school:( Bye y'all.

Senior Prom... came and went...

2003-05-18T17:15:27Z

I just got home from my senior prom, and although there were many difficulties, I had a great time. I was sick all night and I threw up there:( That made me tired and I cryed when I heard all of my favorite songs that I didn't have the energy to get up and dance to. For anyone that knows me, you know how much I love to dance. Oh well... by the end of the night I was feeling better, so at least I got to spend the last hour or so dancing and having a blast with my class. Everyone looked so beautiful, I can't beleive that I just had my prom, and now its already over. Jill and Ben were hilarious and we spent most of the night with them. Today is a beautiful day, I plan to spend it outside, I just have to recover a little bit more first! I got my kitties and though the are full of trouble, they are so cute:) Well, I am off to get ready for my day.... sneior prom came and went... and what a time it was to spend with the people I have grown up with my entire life... people that I truly love and cherish.

My achin tooties

2003-05-15T01:03:25Z

Work tonight was slow... although I get more money check wise, I would much rather be waitressing then hostessing. It's just a boring time and it makes my feet ache just standing around and not doing much of anything. I talked to Mr. Whittey about math and things are looking up. I am feeling better about the whole situation, I just gotta keep trying my hardest and the best reward will come from that. Prom is in 2 days! AHHH! I can't wait, I am so siked out about it, AND the best part for me is the fact that I got Marcia to cover for me Sunday morning. Those nazi bitches were going to make me work the morning after my senior prom.... yeah ok, let me tell you how wonderfully pleasent I would be to my customers.

Drama is still the most ridiculous aspect of my life. Constant bullshit lies go around it makes me infuriated about even being involved with certain people. I hope that everything just blows over and returns to being good. I can't wait till Lauren comes home and stays here for the summer. I miss her and we have really good times together. We are getting 2 adorable lil kittens tomorow and I can't wait! Kittens are my favorite animals, so cute and innocent and fun to play with. :) Well, I am off to tan and be pretty. Night y'alll!

Drama... constant drama...

2003-05-13T18:04:11Z

Hey y'all, I am in school, its the last class of the day and I would have left because I have a study, but I had to leave my car at home and I didn't want to walk. I have had a really stressful day, I just wanted to cry. I am failing math right now.... Mr. Whittey made me feel a little better about the whole deal, but its still very stressful to know that I have 2 weeks till graduation and I am failing the class that I need. Ugggg! And then I passed in my community service paper and she said that it wasn't acceptable! I am so angry with this school and I just want to quit, but I know that I can't because I am almost all done... hopefully. I am feeling a little better, Jilly and Amanda helped me out of that whole ordeal, I just gotta deal with whats going on right now and do whatever I can to make it all better for myself.

Last night was just ridiculous drama. I hate drama and I am done with it! My "friend" that is now no longer my friend is an asshole and I in no way deserved being treated like the way he did alst night. Nothing was my fault, I just get caught up in the middle and people just think its ok to walk all over me. Whatever, no big deal to me.. he told me that I am not worth it, so why should I make him worth it? I am done with the whole thing, its a waste of my time dealing with "adults" that act like children. So..... things are kinda shitty right now with me. I gotta be going, school is out in 5 mins! Whoo! At least something can brighten up my day somehow. I just thought I would update my anger and my shitty, dramatic life.

Intresting, yet painful night!

2003-05-11T04:54:15Z

Tonight I hung out at Tim's house with James and Wayne, it was a good time! I really like Wayne, hes a nice guy that is really talented! Wow! I am really happy with all the things that happened tonight, although they were painful and exhausting! I am really tired, I have been on my feet all day and work was very slow. Tomorow is mothers day! Wow, good job reminding yourself..... I gotta work.. I am sure it will be busy, good for me:) I am going to be very tired on Monday:( Prom is now a week away, and I am getting very excited! I hung out with Kevin yesterday and it was nice to see him again, I wish that I could see him more. Well y'all, its time for bed... I need all the sleep I can get! Night! Love ya Pooks..

Phew! Finally a break....

2003-05-08T00:58:59Z

I feel that I have been on the go 24/7 laltely... I'm not sure if I view that as a good or bad thing! School is almost out and the pressure to do the best that I can to get a diplomia is super high right now. I can't wait until I graduate and just be done with the whole ordeal. I started work last week and its really a good job, I like it a lot. I work with 6 of my good girlfreinds and we have a blast there. James has been working a lot too, so that is good, we both have to save up for prom. Prom is a week from saturday and I am pumped, I can't beleive that my senior prom is already here! I feel that I have also been double booking people left and right. I try and please everyone at once, fitting people in time slots that don't exisit and not keeping plans that I should be keeping. I dunno.. I just gotta keep my plans strait and give everyone the proper attention that they deserve! Everything has been going somewhat good though, and that is a first for me. I just thought I would update this dusty ol journal that I don't seem to write in much anymore.... bye y'all!

Yeah well... shit happens.....

2003-05-07T01:46:52Z

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Can't accept it!

2003-04-27T15:14:12Z

Today is my last day of vacation! I am bummin out about it, I have terrible senoritis and I don't want to go back to school! Ohhh well.... almost done, its just a few more weeks! I can't belive that its almost May! Whoo, April is over! James had a good birthday, we had a fun time together. We spent most of this weekend together and it was lovely. My parents just got home from being away for 4 days and I am happy that they came home early. I missed my mumma!:( Today I am supposed to hang out with my buddy, but I doubt I will be able to wake him up! I shall try though. My report card came! I did good except math and my mum was actaully happy about it! Yay!:) So all is well here in my life, just livin it up, doing what makes me happy, and its all working out smoothly. I gotta keep updating this journal, I have been neglecting it. Have a good one y'all.

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2003-04-25T16:24:21Z

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OHH YEAH! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAMISON!:) Yesterday was James' 21st birthday and we had a blast! It must be exciting turning 21.... I can't wait:) Congrats Pookie! I am outta here, its a beautiful day outside!!